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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Trapfalls

Yeah, I know it's been a while and those of you that either check this site and wonder why or just stumble upon it after some wild Google chase probably tsk and click away as fast as your index finger will take you.

I don't blame you. There hasn't been much to see here since I started it with the best of intentions to at least post up the hum-drum stuff of everyday life. I had hoped to create some sort of crossover effect with my other blog as well. All those things will happen still, I'm sure, but just not at the rate I predicted.

Bumps in the road happen even when you plot the most logical and safe course. I'm not naive enough to believe that I have such a charmed life that life itself won't turn on me from time to time, testing my will, testing my grip. But I find that you can be caught unawares very easily.

Without going into deeper detail (yet), I will tell you folks that this summer has already proven itself to be one of significance in my life.

I found out that a loved one has cancer, but an operation promises a positive outcome. Regardless, it weighs heavy on my mind and heavier on my heart. I can only wait, pray, be there, and be.

Two weeks ago, I quit my job of sixteen years. I left in the middle of the day with no advance notice. I do not have a job lined up. Again, without too many details, I can say that it was the single most liberating thing I have done in my life. With the support of my wife, family, and friends, I have no doubt that I did the right thing for my future. And for my own mental well being. I am frightened, but also excited, to venture forth into a new career and therefore a new way of life.

Less significant things have also been rocketing around my little bubble of a life, but they have also played into my current condition; the plan to possibly sell the house and rent for awhile until the market benefits us, a relationship with a old friend that dissolved into bitter and hurtful nothingness only to recently come to the forefront at a most inconvenient time, and all the other little things we all have to deal with everyday.

So there you go. I only post this all up here to explain what could be observed as laziness. I am enjoying some writing away from the blogs and I hope that this spills over to both of my sites. I've also been reading some entertaining non-fiction that seems to have re-energized my enthusiasm to finally get serious and just write it all down.

I can't say when I'll post again and, in fact, I should shy away from doing so because it's embarrassing to reread my old posts with grandiose promises of output. But I'll be back and I'll hope that you'll keep checking back, no matter the reason. I'll take all comers.

There is a new post on Tony's Hazy Concert Memories (part of kicking my own ass into posting up again).

2 Comments:

Blogger Mrs Lefty said...

Wow Tony. I have to say that we should get together and hang out.

6:10 AM  
Blogger Lefty said...

It's about time you quit that job so you could spend more time posting to your blog. It's all about priorities.

(Um, just don't tell your lady I told you that, cause she'd kick my ass down one block and up the other)

That being said, I hope everything goes well. If you ever need a concert buddy, a friend, or a disignated driver, give me a ring.

7:38 AM  

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